May 2011
1 post
i do not understand
i don’t understand how people can be so irrational sometimes. how we let our emotions get the best of us… to the point where we are hurting the people we claim to love. we do love them right? even though we don’t always show it? sometimes i am not so sure. i think that love is self less. love is giving, and it is patient. but how easy is it for us to forget this concept?
very...
April 2011
1 post
days like these
well, it’s been almost a whole year since i have visited this little spot. i have missed writing. i love blogging, and i love the amazing women i have met through it. but i miss the confidentiality feeling of my tumblr. feeling like i can just write down all my thoughts, as if no one in the world will read them except me.
things in life have been great.
major changes have taken place, and...
May 2010
3 posts
play my music
every once in a while you get exactly what you want. you get exactly what you wished for even though you really didnt believe wishes came true anymore. thats how i feel right now. ive been dancing around my life since last friday. im SO happy. all the way down to my toes. so i just wanted to take this moment to THANK THANK THANK God for blessing my life. my soul is singing. my heart is skipping....
i run to you
i have a shopping problem. its so out of control. i dont even have room in my closet anymore.
ps; my other open tab is urban outfitters checkout. ugh.
young forever
after a week off im back. i feel so refreshed. i woke up for the first time in 6 days without any pain. i plan on driving my car home tonight. its going to be nice. the first time in over a week <3 i had a wonderful weekend. it actually felt like a weekend. having friday night off was amazing. i just lounged around my beautiful home hanging out with some people that i love. holly and i grabbed...
April 2010
4 posts
airstream song
i love the spring time. i love when the sun is out shining. i love the way that it makes me feel, and how alive the earth seems to be. they all make me realize how amazing God is. how beautiful his paintbrush must have been.
i had an amazing weekend. i relaxed, i slept in a little bit. i worked a winemaker’s dinenr at one of my favorite vineyards. i went to church and i fell even more in...
you be the anchor that keeps my feet on the...
my dreams have been keeping me awake. if that makes any sense at all. i wake up and i cant forget them. im not getting the rest that i need. its like my head isnt shutting off. some of the dreams are good. and some of them are bad. either way theyre always about the same thing. how do you know when its right? when its time? is it the kind of thing where you just one day wake up and its gone? or am...
two is better than one
ive had a lot on my mind lately. for the first time in my life i find myself keeping quiet about all my thoughts. its almost as if im afraid to say or do anything. im not sure how that happened. i wake up every morning and i can tell ive been restless. something is different. i almost feel as if im standing on the edge. its like waiting for the other shoe to drop. im waiting for the pain to come,...
March 2010
8 posts
i gotta find you
every time i think im closer to the heart
of what it means to know just who i am
i think ive finally found a better place to start
no one ever seems to understand
i need to try to get to where you are
could it be, youre not that far?
youre the voice i hear inside my heart, the reason that im singing
i need to find you. i gotta find you.
youre the missing piece i need, the song inside of...
we looked like giants
oh springtime. i love you. i can finally wear dresses everyday again. im such a girl. i wish i didnt have to be locked away in this office all day. oh and i also wish that i didnt have to work 16 hours today. hmm.
its happening again. im not sleeping well. i dont know why either. ive got a lot on my mind i think. i used to be able to blame my bed, but thats not really my problem anymore. it seems...
just dance
happy st patty’s day. the day that EVERYONE uses as an excuse to get drunk and act like idiots. no thanks. i actually hate this day. except for the corned beef and cabbage. which i am actually making for dinner tonight. so excited. i srsly love my kitchen. i think its the most amazing space. and i love my dining room table. i love feeling like an adult. i love waking up in the morning and...
empire state of mind
today is a slow day. im forcing my eyelids open. luckily amanda is a guest in the office today and i have her to talk to. she gets to see just how crazy my parents and i are together. we have fun here. my dad and i had a meeting today with a potential supplier. it makes me very excited. the ideas we have for the buisness are really starting to come together. im so proud of my dad for making...
“maybe this weight was a gift, like i had to see what i could lift.”
– oh you know
concrete bed
this is probably the exact opposite way i feel about my life right now. so many things are happening, and i feel ready to take them all on. ive settled into my new place, and it took me three days. now im left to nest. the weekends will be best for this. i am going to go shopping at antique corner this sunday. after the farmers market. im 99 percent done with my bathroom and im so happy with how...
February 2010
2 posts
la la la
its moving day. i couldnt be happier. im starting over today. a new fresh start. not that i needed it. im already so happy with the way things are going now, but its going to be amazing. i cant wait to just get it all in and start nesting. i cant wait to get back to my craft project and to exercising. i cant wait to make time for my friends again. and i cant wait to get started on the project with...
i'm taking you with me
BEST weekend EVER. followed by the BEST Monday ever. heres the scoop…
* dinner at OSF where my waited guessed my order on the spot.
* Beauty and the Beast sing a long with my roommate
* farmers market with the boy and his best friend. followed by some delicious wine.
* lunch with jenn sathe and company. dylan picked me a flower, and its currently pressed in my favorite new book.
* a...
January 2010
2 posts
better life
i always let my ipod shuffle pick my songs to blog to. i like to leave it up to fate. every once in a while, i skip to the next track. so is the case today and i feel like this is the PERFECT song to start my day off. things are changing all around me. so quickly. and im excited about it. i have faith in where this road is taking me. life just keeps throwing me curve balls, and id like to think...
for me this is heaven
well, i did it. last night. i had that letter in my purse for a week. its gone now, and i feel so good about it. its time for me to start this new year off the way i wanted to. it just took a little inner pushing, but im so happy i did it. and to be honest, im PROUD of myself. i always let my mom handle situations that make me feel uncomfortable. gosh, i even asked her to go to the county when...
December 2009
1 post
dizzy
changes are coming. big ones. i can feel them in the air. and i can tell you… i have never been more excited.
once again i played the “one year ago today” game. and i know now, more than ever, that one year ago, lead me to one year later… TODAY. and i couldnt be more grateful for all of the changes. i think we all grew up a lot this year. life is funny. itll take you...
November 2009
3 posts
hot n' cold
im excited about life right now. most days i wake up happy. theres a lot going on upstairs, but its mostly good. im making a lot of progress in my relationship with my mom and dad. i decided a few weeks ago that i need to get along with them better than i do. with my dad, this will always be a difficult struggle. but my mom is easy. i just need to learn how to be more patient. and not get so angry...
you belong with me
you’ve got a smile that could light up this whole town <3
so tonight is history in the making. taylor swift goes up for her entertainer of the year award and she is the youngest EVER to do it. im so proud of her. now i know most of you will think that im crazy. ive never met the girl. were total strangers, and there are a LOT of taylor fans out there. crazy or not, i feel a deep...
famous in a small town
dear diary-
most people annoy me. and here is how they do it.
theyre selfish. they are self rightoues and they never put in the same amount.
on a happier note, i had a great weekend. best halloween in a long time. spent it with a lot of people that i really love. and i felt so lucky to have so many of them in the same room at the same time.
work is getting a little better. im just trying to...
October 2009
4 posts
soul meets body
last night was a good night. a really good night. for a few reasons. yes, i was sick. but it was still a great night.
i am convinced that death cab is possibly one of the best bands of all time. ive been listening to them all day. i cant stop. shuffle is an amazing thing ps. ive been a little sick, and its pretty much making me feel better. i have to leave the office soon to go work in the...
the good kind
windy days make me happy. i dont really like to BE in them, but i love watching all of the leaves fall. the holiday season is officially here. and i couldnt be happier about it. the holidays are for families, friends, and showing others just how much they mean to you. its my favorite time of the year.
last night was girls night and i made justin dinner. it was a fail. i always get nervous...
“it’s a beautiful thing when you wake up in the morning, and realize...”
i swear this time i mean it
ive done a lot lately that im not proud of. most of which you wouldnt judge me by. but its been in my head. it keeps me awake at night. it haunts me. most of them are small. swearing too much, picking fights with my parents, not working 80 hours a week any more… but some of them are really bad. falling away from my faith, breaking someones heart, letting someone else break my heart for the...
July 2009
2 posts
disappearing act
as you know, ive been working a lot. its been getting me down a bit. mostly because i just feel like im missing out. im missing out on spending time with my friends and spending time with myself. everything that i HAVE to get done, i keep pushing back. and its really starting to take a toll on me. my bedroom is proof enough. i miss lounging on the couch, watching the rachel ray show. i miss...
umbrella
you can run into my arms, thats okay dont be alarmed <3
oh how i miss days where i could just sit and type everything out. where i could just forget the rest of the world. turn my head off, and just vent. let my fingers do all the work. i dont get much time for that anymore. but today i found the time. finally. its my quiet time really. life has been so chaotic. im not complaining. i...
June 2009
7 posts
“You grow up the day you have your
First real laugh at yourself.”
“I’m starting with the man in the mirror. I’m asking him to make a...”
dirty diana
So it’s a sad day. MJ has passed and the world won’t be the same. Yes he was a little sick and twisted in the end but he is a legend. The Elvis almost of
A generation. And I pray that his soul has finally found peace. I will be bumping your music mike. Por vida.
“three words. eight letters. just say it, and im yours.”
which to bury, us or the hatchet
i havent blogged in a while. maybe a month. maybe more. but ive missed it. that i know for sure. there have been days where im driving in my car just thinking about how great it would feel to just vent them all down here. but im always on the move. i know this sounds like an excuse. and to some extent it may be. but i really am so busy. busier than ive ever been. but i really like it. and im...
epic →
of COURSE liz found this for me
May 2009
12 posts
ill run
so it finally happened. i got the job. my DREAM job. and i couldnt be happier. tuli bistro, here i come. yes ive been your intern, but yesterday i was announced as the new girl. and it couldnt feel any better. all my hard work has paid off. the thing is, i didnt think i could do it. but my friends did. and im so lucky to have them standing behinde me. i dont know what i would do without them.
...
wrap me up
i know i shouldnt have, but i couldnt help it. i want em.
girls do what they want
so tonight is the season finale. omg. gossip girl, i shall miss you. this is the only thing that i hate about summer. my shows leaving me. dear chuck bass, you better suck it up and tell blair that you are in LOVE with him.
xoxo
if you know me, then you know that this is exactly where i want to be
spin
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say youre sorry
it was real for me. every second. it doesnt make sense, and it wasnt perfect, but it was me. my feelings. out on the table. for everyone to see. and i dont care if they all laugh at me or if im made a joke of. at least i was real. at least i was honest. a lot happened this morning. a lot of crying. but in that moment i knew i was over. all i had to hear were those three words. said by another...
breakdown
today i have a million thoughts. i could write them all down, but you probably wouldnt care. so ill keep them to myself. i feel like theyre eating me from the inside. im taking the first few steps forward, you better believe that. my life, its going to change. ill have my new job soon, ill be in much better shape, and my heart wont belong to you. im letting go. for good. and for the first time,...
waldorfworldwide
last night i made spicy chicken tacos at the request of a certain someone. let me tell you, they turned out perfectly. i forgot how much i missed cooking at home. i havent had much time, being super busy and all, but i REALLY miss cooking for my friends. its nice to mix it up too. i made liz her own potato tacos. damn vegetarian. i made this green pepper white cream sauce and it was perfect....
my wedding dress →
someday, ha.
gimme
srsly, i need this in my life.